You ever have one of those 24 hour periods where you wish it just hadn't happened? I have, and am still trying to figure out how I feel about it. First, my father has informed me that he is going back into the hospital to have another go at his heart. Apparently, the doctor that cracked his chest to fix his heart late last year only did 2/3 of the job, but neglected to tell my father. It wasn't until he had a mild heart event a couple of weeks ago that the truth surfaced. I am still a bit angry about this. It just seems like gross mal-practice to open a man up to fix his heart, when you have told him that he has three areas of blockage, and then only fix two of them. Then, to add insult to injury, not tell him. Wow.
Second, I was all set to start a new job in a couple of weeks. It's off the table. There are a variety of factors at play, all too gory for posting here, but it's a shame. I was really excited about this new opportunity. More importantly, I had already left my old job. It's a weird and unfamiliar place I now find myself. I suppose that this is all the Universe's way of telling me that perhaps it is time I get my head out of my ass and finally pursue running my own company. It's an idea I have been toying with for some time now. Actually ever since leaving business school. Doing what? I don't know yet. I'm just trying to maintain perspective and consider that all of this is happening for a reason. To focus me on doing what I want to be doing, and stop clipping my bi-monthly coupon (paycheck) working for someone else.
I thought that when I found out about my father, I needed a hug. Instead I got a boot up my ass. Perhaps it's time. Perhaps. We'll know for sure in the next couple of weeks. I am going to focus full time on sorting out what it is that is going to make me happy. How I can have my vocation and avocation be as close to the same thing as possible. This is a unique opportunity and I don't want to waste it. I also don't want to miss it. It should be an interesting journey, and the only way I get through it is with the support of my best friend, wife and soul mate. Without her, I really would be lost.